Monday, September 2, 2013

keep swimming

There is a kind of high I get when there is a problem to be solved.  When I am in a position to help someone find the right path for them.  My brain feels fully engaged, which always surprises me and reminds me how little effort I put into so many things.  It feels like my head spins with options, interventions, philosophical diatribes, and challenging questions I could use to help the person gain access to a new way of viewing their own world.
I can spin for hours in my mind on how to break down someones problems into new ways of viewing the world and themselves.  Often, I believe, that is where we get stuck.  We get stuck in our interpretation of our own world view.  We get stuck believing the thoughts popping around our heads, or get stuck in the overwhelming emotions we are feelings.  We get swamped by them and we forget that as that wave crashes, if we relax a little, we will float to the surface where the air is clear again.  Its like when you fall in the water.  At first, you are in shock.  you are overwhelmed by the feeling of being out of control, of danger, of not being able to breath.  It is dark and you are disoriented.  Then you see the surface, a shimmer of light or the blue sky above the water and you fight furiously to get to the surface.  All of you energy is expended, and you are again swamped by the fear of not being able to breathe.  If you relax however, you begin to float up, you are less strained to breath, and you reach the surface and take the breath you need so you can assess the situation with some objectivity and begin to swim towards the shore.
Not easy.  Not at all.  It is necessary for success and survival.
I suppose, you could say, all I really want is to teach people how to swim.